Insomnia

Insomnia is...whatever you can think of.

I am a bad sleeper. I have been since I was in college.  Something starts happening in my little pee-brain and there you have it, wide awake.

To give you some insight on what happens to me, here you go.  I do sleep well for somewhere in the two to three month range.  But then for about two weeks or so, I may only get one to two hours of sleep a night.

There is no warning.  I might even be dog tired.  But there I lie, and there is a party going on in my head. I start singing the remake to 'Holy Diver' by Killswitch Engage.


Then I have to ask myself, why not just sing the original version from Dio:

Okay, let's sing that for a bit.  Wait, now let's sing some Pearl Jam.  That would be a good encore to those last two songs, right? Okay, what's next? Oh, I should try to sleep...

So I try to sleep.  That is much harder than if you just actually fall asleep.  Trying to sleep is stupid.  This is dumb.  This is so frustrating.  I am thinking way too hard here.  You can't try to sleep.

Time to break the cycle.  I will count, and that will get all those songs and thoughts out of my head.  Maybe I can count to one thousand. 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9....107,108,109,110. I have a long way to go.  Okay, back to it. 155,156,157,158,159,160...180,181,182. This is getting boring, I sure have an active mind.  Counting is so mundane.  How does anyone get anything done?

I did it again. Just as I was getting tired, I realized how bored I was.  Okay, start over.  1,2,3,4...Holy Diver!

DAMN! where did that come from.  Now it is 4:28am. Oh God, if you get me through this...

Stop. What an interesting thought. No thoughts at all. Calm the mind. Rest the body.

And then I wake up at 6:15am when the alarm does its job.  Wow I must have done it.  I fell asleep.  Maybe that was an hour and a half.  That's good enough for now, I guess. My friends have been telling me that sleep is over-rated for years.  It must be true since I haven't yet died of lack of sleep.

I hope tonight is better than last night. Has Dio got anything else? No, he's dead now. Oh no!