Gnats! Everywhere, pesky GNATS!!

The creativity process is not an easy birthing. And, I guess, for you and me, I have absolutely NO time frame I'm under to produce something I would want you to read.

I have no editor, other than myself, and no advertisers clamoring for a "product." But, I do have "you." All of you. . .individually, meekly asking, "When are you going to write something?" "What's next?" "Think of anything, yet, you "DesertHead?" "I keep clicking on LongSeason and I get nothing. Did you pay your cable bill?"

And I find that charming, actually, and complimentary.

Except, one "push" I received was from a dear friend, who asked, "I hope you're not dying of anything sooner than you were expecting and that's why you're not writing. . ."

Um, and to that, I can honestly respond, "Nope! I'm dying right on time! Yup! Absolutely, I'm On Schedule!"

Shithead.

I was unhappy with LongSeason. Not for what it was, but for what it wasn't. It wasn't the literary gem I'd envisioned. I thought I could put out "Dave Barry" blurbs like rabbits produce turds. And I can't.

To be honest, it's HARD! To think of something that doesn't bore the hell outta me, and spend the time to "Hunt and Peck" my way through the thought to put it on the computer, and then, going beyond, what might not bore the hell outta you?! Well, It's hard. That's what I'll call it now. "Hard." At times it took on the "Impossible" moniker, but we'll let that alone.


Though, I think I've gotten better at it, but that's just because I've gotten more used to sitting by myself in my dark computer room with an LED lamp, by myself, with my pissed wife, in bed, waiting for me to, "Jesus, Get Creative, would you, and come to bed, you Idiot!!" It rolls off you after scores of nights of that noise. . .

My LongSeason will return, and perhaps will be indistinguishable from the prior one for you. But I can guarantee you, MY focus will be different.

My snag is deciding what "voice" I will want to use. And, in truth, I can't imagine one different from my own. But what to say?

Get into politics? Haha!! Not in my job! Nope! I can't Do That!

Get into psychological pain that family suffers from? Nope! I'm too ignorant to address THAT issue! (Though I'm studying the problem, trust me!)

"My" LongSeason will incubate a while longer. (For some, you may consider it "festering." ) Chris and Paul are still here. They can step up whenever they'd like, and NOW would be a good time for them to do so! (HINT, HINT!!)

"My" LongSeason will return, but I'm just not ready yet. . .